we moved the wedding date! we are now getting marriedon July 21st! woah! there is so much to do before then. I have only three days of classes left and three of finals, so I am trying to focus on my schoool work instead of worrying about everything. I know it will all pull together but I am still aware of everyting that needs to get done and I cant seem to turn it off.

I hate it when you get hurt and cant seem to let it go. I have prayed about this and prayed about this and i thought I was done with it until a situation came up pertaining to the hurt and I made a couple pointed comments to the hurt-er almost unvoluntarily. I am reminded of Paul when he said, ( Amanda's paraphrase) i do what i dont want to and i dont do what i want to! I want to let this go. but I want the hurt-er to know how deeply I was cut. I cant move on until this is resolved, but I dont know how to resolve it while being fair/nice/not hurtful. My non-Christ self wants to hurt this person back. My non-Christ self wants to make this person understand the implications of what they said. My non-Christ self wants to deal the consequenses and punishment. Everything that is stressing me out has made me a nervous wreck. Everytime I have tried to address this I have either been mean or started crying. Neither of which work. I feel like I have hit a brick wall, and I dont know what to try anymore.

so if you havent you still need to watch that video... there is a spot almost to the 2 min mark where his face is priceless when he says okie from muskogee ( it is right after he talks about respecting the college dean) my roomates and Jess and I watched that part about three times in a row!

I have eight days of classes including today. then three days of finals....wow. that is kind of scary.

I am ready to be done...I have sooooo much on my mind that it is hard to concentrate.

please pray for me and Eliezer, we have a very important decision to make and it has to be made this week....we need God's guidance. 

I wish that the DR was on the VWP list!!!!!!!!! that would make my life sooooo much easier!!!!!

i just returned today from Muskogee Oklahoma, it was an interesting trip. we were pulled over twice but didnt get any tickets, we drove for 12 hrs for a 45 min. presentation, i visited oklahoma for the first time and stayed at someone's house whom i had never met before and w/o anyone i knew, my boss called me at 8:30 (AM!) to tell me that i had to find a replacement for my replacement (really long story- readers digest: I got hollered at by my boss and stressed out all before breakfast...not good) and I was introduced to the song Okie from Muskogee by Merle Haggard! so apparently he was on tour and driving through Oklahoma and saw a sign for Muskogee and started to write the song! it is hilarious! here is a link! you must watch!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qVeBRYh2BVY

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ok so i know i could be working on something while i wait for my biblical theology notes to print but i dont want to. it is raining and has been for at least 36 hours now, and i feel apathetic. so there. well anyway, my trip to the dominican was incredible. i definitly didnt want to come back. i will have to upload some of my pictures when my life settles down. Oh yeah and to everyone who I havent told yet! I AM ENGAGED!!!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!! when i stop and actually think about it, it just blows my mind! He asked me on the plane on the way back from the Dominican - over the P.A. SYSTEM!!! it was crazy!

well I had better go, its done printing..... only a few more weeks of school!

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!

in light of the day i thought that i would finally update. I feel like i should write some eloquent internal reflection about what this day means to me and what personal lightbulb moment i have had on the subject recently. but i wont. you all will read hundreds of those and if you know me, you know i dont like to be the same as everyone else. A friend of mine brought this article to my attention and i thought that i would share it with you. i hope it convicts you and challenges you. ( warning: i am using the significance of today to manipulate your thoughts and emotions!) well, it is about a topic that has been on my mind for a long time and i am thankful that it is getting attention. so read it! love you all!

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/04/04/martin.jesus/index.html